The interesting thing about writing a weekly post for me is that when I write it, I find that I have all kinds of perspective on the week and that my posts don't really reflect the roller coaster I often actually experience. When I look back at this week, I feel pretty good about it, but within each actual day it varied from extreme frustration with myself and my eating habits, to utter gluttony and indulgence and a dismissal of all healthy habits, to exceptionally healthy eating and exercise. All things considered, it was a good week. But the roller coaster is exhausting.
The week started back up with more Taco Bell. It's not that it tastes 'good' per say, but it tastes comfortable. I find it soothing to eat and it kind of numbs me out. After last week's work with coach Ellen, it really annoyed me that I was still making stupid unhealthy eating choices.
That led to a day or two of intense frustration with myself, though not really a change in habits.
Then, Damian suggested that we start eating really healthy 6 days a week, and super-indulge on Sundays. I had done that many years ago and it proved really effective with my black and white personality. So I turned Friday into "Sunday" and ate, among other things, a box of Eggos. And cream sauce over pasta. And a fair amount of rum. The next day I PAID. OMG was I sick (can you say "Duh"?). My body was so mad at me. I won't go into the gory details, you've probably been there. So that brought me back to juicing for a day just to be gentle with myself. Then, the next day was a combo of juicing and healthy meals, and a lovely walk in the park with Damian. And now I am writing this post.
Roller coaster! But since it ended well, like most roller coaster rides do, I fell okay. But I am REALLY hoping that getting that sick a few days ago will help me stay with healthier choices. Fingers crossed. At least if we do the indulgence days I ought to keep them gluten and dairy free cuz, damn!
The GREAT news is that my mom and I had our first on-the-phone meal planning date this week, and I planned out meal for two nights - Stuffed Peppers for dinner last night and Potato Spinach soup for dinner this coming Wednesday. The peppers turned out REALLY well and Damian really liked them. That is saying a lot because he's been making stuffed peppers for decades, but beef and lamb based, so to make a gluten free vegan option and have him really enjoy it is a big success! Yea! But the biggest success for me is that I got into the kitchen and cooked.
I feel so uncomfortable in the kitchen. I want to get to a place where cooking feels easy and doesn't intimidate me. And I know that within a month or two, if I keep up the planning dates with mom and the twice-a-week cooking, I'll get there.
My favorite thing since the wedding, though, is that I am focusing on taking time for myself and for my marriage. We spend evenings either watching a show together or reading by the fire (my favorite). I try to stop work by 6 or 7, and I am loving how much time it feels like I have. And stuff is getting done anyway. It's kind of amazing. I am also taking both Sundays and Mondays off from clients and design-work. What?! A whole weekend? it's kind of awesome. I still do stuff related to work - today I am working on a speech I'll give tomorrow, and calling references for the assistant I want to hire, and might even create a newsletter to send out, but no design work. And I'll try to get out for an extra hike (though we went out yesterday, so it would just be a bonus). So excited to hire an assistant, and so nervous!
THIS WEEK'S KEY TO SUCCESS: Eating so much gluten and dairy that it reminded me why I don't eat those.
THIS WEEK'S PERSONAL CHALLENGE: Cook twice, take a hike.
Pic 1 - Out with Damian in the gorgeous weather for a hike and a picnic - amazing afternoon!
Pic 2 - Revamped office all set up and ready for an assistant, now to find the right one....